little miss anu

the night-watcher

2006-12-07T05:43:00.000+05:30

today as I cuddled into bed
under the window,
I felt like someone was
watching me intently.

I got up and peered out of the window
and saw a big round silver moon
peaping through the gaps in the trees
to look at me sleeping

I waved out to the moon and
climbed back into my bedsheets
the moon stayed up all night
shining onto my beautiful moon face

at 5am today when I woke up, I looked up for the moon
and it was gone,
perhaps, it has gone to shine on another beautiful face!

one full circle

2006-12-03T19:04:00.000+05:30

today I gave my 5th kyu aikido test and
after the test, sensei told me
in front of all the students

"Anu, I'm very impressed seeing your rolls.
you roll fabulously now, in a full circle.
you should be very very proud of yourself
to be able to roll in this fashion."

I am beaming in joy and
a sense of accomplishment
many a bones I'd broken trying to learn to roll
many a fears I've overcome trying to embrace a fall

today I can fall like a beautiful flower and
I no more hold a fear of falling
today I know that its nice to be
up in the air
in the sky

but it is even more nice to dive
down towards the earth
it humbles you to take a fall
it enriches you
it empowers you
it makes you complete
the rise and the fall
together form one full circle
as sensei said.

a new friend

2006-11-30T18:50:00.000+05:30

as I was leaving the hospital today,
I was laughing and joking
with the nurses and technicians
suddenly I felt something,
I turned around

curly hairs, light brown skin
eyes are dark black and lovely too
but this little girl of 7 is slightly different
she has a catheter in her neck and
her bright eyes are whispering little words to me

I saw this little girl staring at me
something about her big beautiful round eyes
and her curly locks, I was falling in love
I smiled and waved out to her
her silent big eyes suddenly brightened and
she waved back
smiling the sweetest smile I've ever seen

she is Nimisha, and on dialysis
she does not talk or smile to anyone
perhaps in my eyes she saw no sympathy
but a precious glee and delight for her
maybe she saw another 7yr old little girl in me
this is going to be the begining of
a wondrous friendship and
I'm so excited about my new friend

the balloon

2006-11-25T13:38:00.000+05:30

late at night
on my way back home,
speeding through the highway
I see hardly any vehicles on the road

suddenly from one of the vehicles
flew out a big red color balloon
it was snatched away swiftly by the night breeze

my eyes sparkled at the thought
of a little child around in one of the ricks
I thought of the sadness the child might feel
at the loss of his/her precious balloon
as I peeped into the vehicles on the highway
when I speeded past them

and what do I see?

in one of the ricks stands a little girl
laughing and chatterring away in utmost joy
there was no trace of sadness or loss
on her face or in her expressions
she seemed so delighted
to see the flight of the balloon in the air

perhaps, there is a greater joy in letting go
in tasting the deliciousness
of the lightness after giving something away
rather than by owning and holding on to it

Bed no 619

2006-11-21T20:24:00.000+05:30

Seldom is anyone allowed visit the ICU
and 25-yr old Nikhil, though conscious, was in ventilator
unable to speak, not had a drop of water for 45 days
and with 20 tubes all over his body

after my dialysis, I asked the ICU security guard
to forward my comics to Nikhil in Bed no. 619
guard directed me to the ICU counter and
the nurse directed me to Nikhil's bed
seems like I'm destined to meet Nikhil
and miraculously the universe is making it possible

I whispered as I reached his bed, `Nikhil'
two eyes opened and suddenly his face brightened
he smiled so vibrantly, and almost didn't blink
I felt like he could not take his eyes off my face
I showed him my best wishes card which said
'Get well soon and we'll have coffee together'
and he nodded furiously, still grinning ear to ear

I unwrapped the gift wrapping paper and
showed him the comics I'd purchased for him
I spoke to him for a few minutes and
told him I'll meet him again very soon
He was listening to me with rapt attention
and so were the nurses in the ICU ward

when I was just about to leave,
Nikhil tried to reach out to something over his head
it was the gift wrapping paper
he grabbed it and held it close to his heart
a tear slide from his right eye
I kissed him on his right cheek and left

the touch of an angel

2006-11-18T10:26:00.000+05:30

yesterday I was stuck in a traffic jam
all the vehicles were so close to each other

I was sitting in one corner of the rick
listening to the music and suddenly,
someone tried to touch me

I was so shocked, I lifted my eyes and saw
there was another rick very close to mine
and there were two legs of a man in it
I almost flew into a rage and thought,
"how dare this man grab me like this!"

and almost immediately, a tiny moon-shaped face
peeped through the other rick, with awestuck eyes
and two pigtails and a big bright radiant smile
it was a little girl sitting on that man's lap
she was trying to reach out to me
it was perhaps, the healing touch of an angel

I've still not gotton over this wonderful surprise and
throughout the journey, as long as we were together
the little girl and I, spent our time
peering from our respective ricks,
waving out, smiling and
blowing kisses to each other

all for a hello

2006-11-05T14:37:00.000+05:30

crowded streets
myself at the signal
in a rick and
watching the opposite street

I see someone frantically trying
to cross the opposite street
the cars and buses rushing towards him
he moves forward one step
and has to take two steps backwards

finally he does manage to cross
the street almost risking his life
and heads straight towards me
panting and excited at the same time

he stops just beside my rick
flaps his lemon yellow wings
in the most gleeful manner
greets me a loving warm 'hello'
and is off on his way now

this lemon yellow darling butterfly
almost risked his precious life
just to greet me

the rise & the fall

2006-10-31T23:04:00.000+05:30

thirty snow white
slim figured cranes
rise towards the sky

a few hundred yellow green leaves
some dried and some golden in color
fall from the tree towards the earth
at the same time

lavender & orange?

2006-10-31T23:00:00.000+05:30

lavender sky
orange moon
talk about color combinations
and fashion statements

the pedicure

2006-10-29T19:16:00.000+05:30

when I was a little girl,
my mom told me told me
"you're legs are so short and
plump for you to wear a skirt"
this disturbs me a lot

today as the parlor lady
touched my feet to do the pedicure
I had all these ticklish feelings
running all through my veins

not only because I was embarrassed
but also as I am very touch-sensitive
the lady was grumpy and
kept staring at me
though I tried hard
to keep a straight face,
it was evident that
I could not stop smiling

she started scrubbing
on my soles, and I almost jumped up
toppling the bowl of water
on her gown, Oh boy!

I was so glad when
it was finally over
the lady said
"you meet me before you go"
and I felt she probably
wants to yell at me

yet I went to meet her
and she told me this
"you've most softest
legs I've ever massaged"

the lousy dancer

2006-10-28T12:02:00.000+05:30

I've been seen
images of myself
dancing so beautifully
since childhood
in my mind
I seem to be addicted
to dance and songs

but now I noticed
I cannot dance in real
I don't know why
I become so stiff in public and
I move like a little robot

yet the lousy dancer
loves to dance and
she knows not that
she glides when she walks

so the lousy dancer
dances all alone
every night for a few moments
to a song she plays for herself
in her over-sized blue night gown
with the wind playing with her long black hair

she moves back and forth
in the little space of her tiny room
sometimes held by the dark (k)night
sometimes swrilled by the soft sweet breeze
and sometimes falls into the arms of the hard bed

Diwali

2006-10-22T14:01:00.000+05:30

today is Diwali
a festival of lights
some light ghee lamps
some light oil lamp lamps, and
some hang big star lanterns
outside their homes all night

I've lit up my little soul
to brighten my life
Happy Diwali

the shopping

2006-10-20T23:23:00.000+05:30

I purchased three new lovely dresses and
one pair of attractive long ear-rings today
and was returning home
seated comfortably in my rick

on one of the lonely hilly roads, I see,
a middle aged man,
exhausted from his day's work
and now, fast asleep,
lying on the pavement
under a street light

the earth is his bed
the sky is his roof and
he is probably, wearing
his only set of clothes

the garbage dealer

2006-10-20T22:32:00.000+05:30

everyone is celebrating
Diwali, the festival of lights
the shopping malls are all lit up
colorful lanterns outside homes
expensive clothes and jewellery
delicious mouthwatering sweets
familes making extensive purchases

a lonely scrap and garbage dealer
stays in his tiny dilapilated hut
on one dark deserted road
which I pass through to reach home

on the eve of Diwali, I noticed
he had lit a little mud lamp and
placed it front of the garbage
outside his home

the invisible designs

2006-10-18T22:39:00.000+05:30

I sing to myself and
make designs in the air
with my my one hand;

my other being pinned down
with needles during dialysis

the wave

2006-10-15T13:53:00.000+05:30

crowded streets
people rushing home
a three year old little girl
waves out to the crowd
but no time for anyone
to notice

I knew, perhaps
she may never notice me
as I was at such a distance
yet I wave out to her

to my surprise and utter delight
she turns around suddenly
and waves back to me
her bright eyes
joyfully looking into mine
and a big smile
on her sweet round face.

this saturday morning

2006-10-14T10:36:00.001+05:30

golden sunrays
scatterred on my floors

a speck of diamond dust
gayfully dances in it mid-air

steal a kiss

2006-10-12T22:19:00.000+05:30

as I was sitting in my rick
I felt someone rush towards me
in full speed

I could feel his warm breath
on my soft cheeks
so very close to me
that I was shocked
I turned my face around
and stared at him

he suddenly stopped in mid-air
and turned his proud head
pretending like he never meant any mischief
and sneaked away in the opposite direction

I swear, I have this surest
feeling in me
that this naughty orange butterfly
with bright polka dots on his wings
almost stole a kiss from me!

and time froze for us

2006-10-11T20:36:00.000+05:30

riding by the wind
in my rickshaw
looking around
with my big beautiful eyes

I see a little yellow leaf
falling from a tree
and suddenlyin one moment
it felt like time had frozen and
the leaf looked like
it was performing
an exquisite dance for me

the traffic around me was so still
my rickshaw was revolving around the leaf
and everything else was a blurr
as if they never existed
in time and space

time had stopped and there was silence
while we looked into each other eyes
the little yellow leaf and myself!

the duet

2006-10-09T00:05:00.000+05:30

if there is something
which makes me jump up in joy
it is to listen to
my favorite song in the radio

it is magic to me
when what I hum
is sung back to me
in the most melodious voice
by the universe itself

one such duet song
we're humming together right now
the universe and myself

who is the loudest of them all?

2006-10-07T14:10:00.000+05:30

sitting on my window cill
with my legs hanging outside
I watch the beautiful green garden

all I can hear is sounds
the slight roaring of the winds
the swishing of the leaves
the sound of a million crows in the sky
as if they are discussing something of great significiance
the laughing and chuckling sounds of little children
the gossipping of the house-wives
the greetings of the elderly gentlemen to each other
the mild barking of the street dog under a car in my building
as if he is grumbling to himself, "can I have some peace please?"

Mirror, Mirror invisible mirror hanging in the air
"Who's the loudest of them all?" asked me

and suddenly, oh all of a sudden,
down came a very heavy downpour
a curtain of millions of drops dropped
without a warning from the sky
and in a moment, all the voices subsided
the people, birds and animals ran for shelter
there was still silence
only one sound
the pitter patter sound of the rain and
its transparent blue glitterring diamond rain-drops
waiting to trip and fall from the tips of the leaves

my invisible magical mirror had just answered me

the fullness

2006-10-06T16:57:00.000+05:30

a certain strength I feel in weakness
a certain wellbeing I feel in sickness
for what do I care to lose,
when there is nothing left to be lost

a certain daring I sense in myself
as I let go and give in
get up and walk away
all alone

my hands in my empty pockets
the sun still shining in my heart
the moon smiling through my lips
perhaps, it is the fullness of my emptiness

new blog title

2006-10-04T13:57:00.000+05:30

When I started this blog, I used the title 'Stripped nude' to undress my pretensions, fears, insecurities, frustrations, dissapointments and pains. I wanted to strip nude for all these and be real and authentic even at the cost of seeming stupid and silly.

But for the past few days, I'm feeling unable to relate much to this blog title and it seems to me like I've overgrown it.

So without much thinking, I've changed the title to 'Anu Story'. Right now, I can't think of any interesting names to name this blog. So I'll call it this.

I'm sorry to inconvenience.

Edit:
My dear friend emerald eyes of the blog http://thisisthecatsmeow.blogspot.com/ has called me with this name 'little miss anu'. I loved it so much and I feel I'd like to name this blog as 'little miss anu'. Thank you my sweet lovely e.e..

three's a company

2006-10-04T13:27:00.000+05:30

reading a book, falling asleep
with one tiny green insect
and one fat little black ant
lying comfortably beside me

non-judgement

2006-10-03T19:42:00.000+05:30

dirty stinking gutter on the pavement
people frowning and cursing the stench
yellow butterfly happily dancing around it

afternoon siesta

2006-09-30T16:48:00.000+05:30

today I entered my enchanted garden alone
as I did not want to imagine you with me

I just felt the sadness in my heart
and I walked to the banks all alone
sat on the green soft grass
and lied down facing the sweet lake

a little furry snow white rabbit
came running to me
and lay down next to me
and placed its head gently
on my extended hand

the beautiful swan
from behind nuzzled something
into my ears as if he were
whispering some sweet nothings to me

and I fell asleep

a bit of you

2006-09-30T16:29:00.000+05:30

and then there are times
when I'm wondering where you are
would you be wondering about me too

won't you want to feel
my soft sensual lips on yours
my slender arms around your neck

as I wander in my imaginations
wondering if at all I'll meet you, this lifetime
I'm feeling restless loving you
and being utterly loved by you
in my fantasies alone

might I have a bit of you in real?

I wonder

2006-09-29T08:55:00.000+05:30

how can you
my dear,
a thin green
single blade of grass
stand so tall and strong
without any support?

Some day
I'll know your answer
but for now I rejoice
in your elegance and wonder.

the picnic

2006-09-26T21:37:00.000+05:30

I weave
my dreams as tall
as the mountains reaching out to the skies

I measure
the depth of my soul
in the deep blue waters of the lake

I blush
feeling the tickle of
the green grass on my toes

I fly
fearless and carefree
on the swing, high up in the air

I drown
my fears and sorrows
in the tiny raindrops drenching me

I sing
my heart's song
with the soft breeze and bumble bees

I breathe
into life, love and laughter
as I chase colorful butterflies around

perfect 120/80

2006-09-21T23:09:00.000+05:30

today at dialysis
the muslim uncle
had low blood pressure

everyone got worried
as his eyes were closing
and he was feeling faint

the doctors, technicians
and nurses
had already given him saline
and glucose water

they told him they'll
now have to give him injections
and medicines
but he simply refused to take them

he said he knows
what's his miracle medicine and said
"just let me look at anu's face once
and talk to her for a few seconds."

so I went to his bed
holding my hand he spoke to me
for a few seconds
then the doctor took his blood pressure

with an absolutely amazed
look on his face and
looking into my eyes
the doctor said,
"perfect 120/80 !!!"

coffee and cranes

2006-09-20T22:29:00.000+05:30

sipping coffee in the pantry,
a dozen snow white cranes
with perfect hour glass figures
glide across the horizon

the never-finishing b-day cake

2006-09-20T22:28:00.000+05:30

I thought I was distributing cakes
to everyone on my birthday
but now I realize,
I’m actually distributing joy
I’m creating ways to feel gladness
by spreading gladness around me

the climb

2006-09-14T22:16:00.000+05:30

tickling his toes
she moves her soft hands
over his strong calves
her long beautiful fingers
caressing his sensual inner thighs

climbing on him slowly
she kisses his hardness and
takes his manhood in her mouth
as he holds her head really close

his sweet warm juices spurt on her face
like a powerful meteor in the galaxy
her pink tongue eagerly licking it
looking right into his deep brown eyes
overflowing with a great satisfaction
and unconditional love for her

the beautiful green creeper
clings tightly to his brown handsome bark
as the tree hugs her affectionately
so very close to his heart

the hello

2006-09-14T22:14:00.000+05:30

today once again
a tiny golden leaf
of the size of a rain drop
gave up its home and
let the breeze carry it
down the road
to land just near my running vehicle
so that my eyes fall on it
and it can greet me
a warm loving hello

the laughing blob of soap

2006-09-13T21:23:00.000+05:30

yesterday while taking bath
my big round sandalwood soap
slipped from my hands and
fell on the pink bathroom tiles

the soap was wet and soft
and it fell like a blob
becoming a bit flat
and stuck to the tiles

the round blob of soap
looked so cute and funny
that I burst out laughing
without picking it up

something so wonderful
about its sense of humor
that I can’t stop smiling
even as I type this poem

the meeting

2006-09-13T21:20:00.000+05:30

he waits for her
at twilight,
beyond the horizon
near the deep blue ocean

as she turns her head
and gazes at him,
she colors his world
with the color of her eyes

yesterday he was rosy pink
today she painted him peach

such eternal lovers,
who may
never meet in real,

the sky and the earth

the maid named Anu

2006-09-12T20:06:00.000+05:30

there is a maid in my office,
who keeps the 4th floor rest room clean
she is about 25 yrs young
and her name is also Anu

she is very thin and dark
looks almost undernourished
her black curly hair oiled
and always tied into a tight bun

her husband died when she was 22 yrs
and she has a 3 yr old son who adores her
she goes about her day so cheerfully
and has the most vibrant smile of all

for reasons I don’t know,
this Anu absolutely adores me
she waits eagerly to greet me daily
and my presence lights up her days
she talks about me to all her friends
and misses me dearly when I’m not around

today I gave her a big chocolate bar
and she told me how much she loves me
sometimes the simplest of the people
present us with the loveliest of the affections

being stalked

2006-09-07T23:17:00.000+05:30

today on my way to work,
I kept glancing to my right side and left side
observing the proud trees and the joyful green grass
and suddenly I felt like I'm being watched

as I turned my head,
I saw a lemonish yellow butterfly
sneaking away stealthily
right in front of my rickshaw

then as I crossed the lake,
there he was, again rushing past me
and this time, taking a nice look at my face

and when I was on the highway
I saw him again, smiling and waving out to me
as he flew right in front of me once again

by now I was having this mischievous smile
on my face and my big beautiful eyeballs
were dancing all over wondering from where
this naughty lemonish yellow butterfly will appear now!

You have so distracted me
my darling lemonish yellow butterfly
I love how you steal naughty looks of me
while I'm looking elsewhere

such a tiny precious being you are,
yet you arouse so much excitement in me
We'll meet again, I am sure,
when the sun shines brightly
just you and me
in the deep dark woods…

beautiful blues

2006-09-06T16:00:00.000+05:30

I’m at work today
all excited and enthusiastic
for no reason at all

wearing an electric blue blouse
and sky blue jeans
long dangling ear-rings
of light and dark blue studs

my face is glowing golden
and my lips adorn a vibrant smile
my eyes are shining like real stars
and my black hair falls
lovingly on my shoulders

the weather outside is so complimentary
to my attire today
deep blue skies and
tiny transparent rain drops

Is there a more beautiful day?
or a more beautiful anu?

the newspaper delivery boy

2006-09-06T15:58:00.000+05:30

in pouring rains
at around 7 am everyday
arrives at my doorstep
a teenage boy
with clothes totally drenched
wearing an old brown windcheater
and a black plastic hat

he is the newspaper delivery boy
and he drops the daily paper
’The Times Of India’
through the grills of my door

though the boy is always dripping wet
his papers feel so warm to touch
neatly folded, crisp and dry
scented with the morning dust
and smelling of freshly printed words

I run to open the door daily,
not to read the paper,
but to merely feel the warmth
and the crispiness of it in my hands
and to smell the sweet flavor
emanating from it

aspects

2006-09-05T22:41:00.000+05:30

one face turned all red
cheeks blushing deep rosy pink
eyes so distracted and
lips hiding a mischievious smile
like millions of little naughty secrets
tripping over her lips stealthily

another remains so still and calm
soothing lavender for the soul
even the harsh southern winds
could not make her battle an eyelid
as she glides along the snow white clouds
like a goddess basking in eternal bliss

two faces of the same sky
one on my right
another, on my left

I'm back

2006-09-03T19:55:00.000+05:30

I'm so glad to be back again. My computer crashed last saturday and returned back only today (Sun afternoon). I'm so sorry dear readers if you came here to read and did not find any posts. But I'm here again :) Kissssssssssss

taste my lips

2006-08-24T21:52:00.000+05:30

my soft sensual full lips
naturally pink in color
and so sweet to taste

when I smile
their beautiful shape
lights up your face
when I pout
electric currents
pass through your body

smooth colorful silky petals
so eager to smooch my lips
their invisible tongue
longs to suck the honey
from my tongue for the bees

the rain drops rushing down
to wet my lips
to melt in my mouth
and to become one with me

my soft sensual full lips
naturally pink in color
fills your heart with
an innocent sweetness
when you’ve tasted them

the little red riding hood

2006-08-24T21:49:00.000+05:30

fresh soft silky breeze
caressing my skin
as I ride through the woods
like the little red riding hood
I’ve no wolf waiting to devour me though
only warm sweet loving grandmom
eagerly waiting to catch a glimpse of me

white slim figure conscious cranes
land so very gently on the green meadows
the wild crazy grass is still drunk
dancing shedding its inhibitions in its intoxicated state
the huge trees embrace the space around me from both sides
keeping me safe

this little red riding hood
is carrying lots of love, kisses and hugs
in her basket
for her grandmom and late grandfather
whom she loves so dearly

wake up call

2006-08-23T21:39:00.000+05:30

Dearest sweetie,
wake up the sun is shining,
the moon has gone to bed,
the stars are cuddling with each other,
the flowers are on duty to please you,
the grass is already dancing to entertain you,
the wind is blowing on your soft skin to feel you,
wake up darling,
it is time to rejoice...your day is waiting for you!

the blessed bed

2006-08-20T14:25:00.000+05:30

sun rays drizzling
soft smooth raindrops falling stealthily
on a labourer fast asleep
with his knees bent
on a top of a wall
breath of which is about 7 inches
and with his black torn umbrella
above his head
to shelter him

just for today..

2006-08-18T08:51:00.000+05:30

just for today
I'll be happy
just for today
I'll guard my peace of mind
just for today
I'll experience every single moment
just for today
I'll smile my brightest smile
just for today
I'll breathe deeply and relax
just for today
I'll dare to be fully alive

my lips

2006-08-15T17:08:00.000+05:30

I have two lips
one horizontal
and another vertical

my horizontal lips are nice to smooch
and my vertical lips are great to be licked

this poem is about my vertical lips
which are presently hidden in black curly hairs
one of these days when I trim my forests
I'll see those vertical lips once again

they are loveliest when they are bald
thick and fleshy, slightly open and always a little wet

and there are those days when I sit
with my legs spread wide apart
take my fingers and open my vertical lips
the thin pink clit leaps out shaking
trembling like a tender leaf and
the thick white silky stream of sweet juice
leaks out of my hot pusssssssy

be careful, when you taste me dear
the fire in me may burn your delicate tongue..

horny holidays

2006-08-15T16:50:00.000+05:30

holidays make me horny
I wake up with a leaking puss
and my mind weaving nasty fantasies

standing in front of the mirror
I stare at my naked body

it turns me on to see
my pink soft nipples now pouting out badly
wanting to be sucked
my hairy jungle down soaking wet with
milky rivers flowing down my inner thighs

what an utterly nasty bitch I look like
with a totally fucked up expression on my face

I can't resist anymore...
I squeeze my tits with one hand and
insert my index finger in my fuckhole
and fuck myself up like a shameless little whore...

Independence Day

2006-08-15T02:02:00.000+05:30

2 A.M.
15th August
wide awake and listening to
Independence Day songs on
radio

a deep kiss on
those beautiful lips which utter
my beloved
country's
name

(I've taken off the picture of my country's flag which I had here as a mark of respect)

the look!

2006-08-14T22:42:00.000+05:30

today, early morning, as I was
wearing a scarf around my neck in the rick
to prevent my hair from flying
I felt I was being watched intently

I saw a small little girl
on her way to school
staring at me so purposefully

I smiled at her and waved out to her
but she did not react
and yet did not take her eyes off me
still staring at me so very intensely
so deep in thought as if
she was solving an algebra problem

I’ll never know what she was thinking about me
but I’ll never forget the expression on her
lovely apple face and brilliant awestruck eyes

the leaf

2006-08-14T08:26:00.000+05:30

to be as light as the leaf
so as to float in the air
to be as joyful as the leaf
so as to laugh even when falling
to be as smart as the leaf
which knows where to land,
yet confuses the seer
to allow oneself to get muddy like the leaf
trusting that the universe will bathe it clean
to be able to let go like the leaf
the very tree which gave it birth
as it merges with the earth
embracing new beginings
with love and passion.

between your legs

2006-08-13T15:23:00.000+05:30

when your cock gets hard and erect
it creates space for me between your legs

the bitch in me cannot but resist
succumbing to your hardness

I stagger onto my knees and
reach out between your legs

with your throbbing manhood rubbing on my face
my pink tongue leaps out to lick your cum filled balls

my mouth then opens up hungrily to take you in,
my eyes looking directly into yours,

you explode into my mouth
screaming my name out..loud

swallowing every drop of your cum
still looking into your eyes
I feel your great love for me!

the connect

2006-08-13T07:19:00.000+05:30

early morning 6 A.M.
so eager I'm to go to my aikido class
to do something I'm so very passionate about

to feel the feelings of estascy and excitement
to feel the deep connection with myself
to feel the love from inside

this is just one aspect of my life
how wonderful it would be to work towards
filling my days and nights with all that I dearly love

trust

2006-08-11T23:09:00.000+05:30

Today is traditional day at work
so I’m in a gorgeous red saree
wearing gold bangles and earrings
and a necklace, looking so lovely

yet I’m feeling disturbed and distracted
and very conscious of myself
as not many girls have worn a saree

my colleague, Shraddha,
who looks very simple and sweet
on the other hand, is so very cool
she neither needs any attention
nor seeks approval from anyone

she is totally into herself
focused in her and
feeling good of herself
while I’m still struggling
with my discomfort due to
lack of trust in myself

the wait

2006-08-10T23:34:00.000+05:30

as I turn towards the long winding road
through the hills,
a thousand tiny green and yellow leaves
of the size of a rain drop,
shower on me, taking me by surprise
as if they were waiting just for me.

one such tiny leaf
still adornes my hair!

surrounded

2006-08-10T22:52:00.000+05:30

four of you surround me, as I ride in my rick
but I'm not afraid of you, you're so very adorable

I see your wrinkled black skin
and almost touched you with my soft hands
I see the precious black hair on your body
and your kingly but slow walk

I see you looking at me from the corner of your eye
white eyeballs with a tiny black shining pearl in it
never ever before have I seen such kind loving eyes
you're my grandpa's favorite

I wish I'd jumped out of my rick and rode on you instead,
you'll take me to work safely, won't you? dear elephants!

the bubble

2006-08-10T08:16:00.000+05:30

bubble, bubble
transaparent big bubble

I see,
the rainbow colors in you
on a floroscent electric violet background
the atoms and molecules
shimmerring and dancing in you
like huge waves rushing towards
the edges wanting to explode into air
yet all well protected and secured
in a tiny thin delicate circle
like you contain the universe in you

bubble, bubble
my toothpaste bubble
you know you live only for moments
when the soft breeze kisses you
you'll burst and merge with him
yet you give your one moment in time
all that what you can be
no regrets, no wantings, no cravings
utter untouched innocent trust in yourself
even though you know you may burst any moment

bubble, bubble
my darling bubble
you inspire me!

the birth of the flower

2006-08-07T01:30:00.000+05:30

for the last five months
the brick has been trying to fall
already cracked a finger and a toe
now too scared to fall
for broken bones
are bound to hurt

yet everyday
the brick tried
only to come back home
in peices
with a shatterred
sense of confidence

today
the brick rolled
in a full circle
and landed softly

today
the brick is
reborn
as the flower!

(my experiences in learning the forward roll in aikido)

To you special friends

2006-08-07T01:18:00.000+05:30

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two sides of the hill road

2006-08-04T23:31:00.000+05:30

a film star
driving in his Mercedes Benz
through the hills,
hundreds of people
gathered to catch a glimpse of him,
traffic jams and total commotion
just to touch his hand or get a look from him

on the other side of the same road,
a little green leaf
has turned baby pink today
and is dancing away in joy,
only my big eyes marveling
this exquisite beauty and grace

Life’s precious little moments

2006-08-04T23:29:00.000+05:30

two school girls
at an earring seller
standing facing each other
putting earrings in each other’s ears

two college girls
on the way to the temple
one loaded with books and papers
and another holding a bowl of flowers,
essence sticks and a lamp
the latter is in a burkha*!

(*burkha is a concealing over garment worn by Muslim women)

earrings

2006-08-04T23:07:00.000+05:30

sometimes small, sometimes long
in different colors
studs, bells, rings, long hanging
dainty pretty little earrings
how my ears totally adore them!

some match with my dresses
and some are a total contrast,
some the color of sun rays
and some the silver of the moon

the best gifts I give myself
are a pair of beautiful earrings

free

2006-07-30T23:48:00.000+05:30

you stand so tall on the ground,
stubborn is your love for her
and straightforward is your approach

yet you let her flirt with the sky
dance dirty with the wind
go berserk with her feelings and emotions

you're love is so free and so easy, coconut tree
you don't need to own her, posess her and promise to her
your palm leaves kiss the stars in the sky,
yet her love roots are burried deep in your heart
infact she sprouts from you...free!

oneness

2006-07-30T23:41:00.000+05:30

sitting on the window sill
my awestruck eyes
marvel at the freshness
of the floroscent green
grass and leaves
as they suck away my negativity

a little myna is pecking worms
from the wet grass

a little truth shines through my eyes
and a drop of smile wets my lips

Good Morning!

2006-07-25T08:26:00.000+05:30

every morning
a big transparent, floruscent,
rainbow coloured bubble
greets me 'Good Morning'
and makes me smile
when i squeeze the tooth-paste
on my tooth-brush

breathless

2006-07-24T05:45:00.000+05:30

yesterday night
suddenly i felt breathless
my heart was beating faster
and my breaths very becoming shorter

I went to the other room
where everyone else was sleeping
my sis was awake though
I told her: I'm scared, will you sleep with me?
she merely mumbled: you'll be fine
and went to the loo

I went back to my room
and sat there alone near the window
a few leaves moved
telling me that I'm not alone
I've been taking deep breaths
since then
and not had sleep at all

as I type this to you
my head feels like it's been hammerred
by thousands of iron rods

their kiss on my lips

2006-07-24T00:08:00.000+05:30

I saw a kissing scene
in a movie
as they kissed each other
i just stared at them
a sweet smile broke out of my face
and when they were done with it
I closed my eyes
electric currents rushed through my veins
and I could feel their kiss on my lips

the seven hole shower

2006-07-23T18:22:00.000+05:30

the feeling of the tiny warm droplets
on my soft silky brown beautiful skin
the Oooooos and aaaaaaahs
that leave my mouth, so naturally,

as i stand there under the shower
which has just seven holes in it
and even as the pure transparent water
falls in one straight line on me,
and I move under the shower
to ensure every drop falls on me

something about pure blue waters
even if they fall from just seven holes of the shower
that sucks away the impurities and the fears
the insecurities and the cravings
that leaves me with a feeling
of deep contentment
and child-like bliss

pain

2006-07-23T18:10:00.000+05:30

pain is a great teacher
just that sometimes it kills its students
but only to be born anew
or should I say 'anu'

bot

2006-07-22T00:01:00.000+05:30

Some annonyomous bot has left 40 automated comments in my archive. I went crazy deleting them from my e-mails. I don't have the time and the patience to delete them from my blog. I dont want bots eating my time and space here. So I'm removing the option to comment Anonyomously. I don't want bots clutterring my emails and blogs. Sorry for the inconvenience if you're using them.

hot food in pouring rains!

2006-07-21T23:41:00.000+05:30

heavy rains
windcheaters and umbrellas everywhere

a family
whose home is the footpath

the mother
cooking rice in an aluminium vessel on charcoal fire

her three children giggling
and holding a plastic sheet above the vessel
to prevent the rain drops from filling it.

reply to CBox comments

2006-07-21T23:36:00.000+05:30

I got a site where I can type my blog address and visit my own blog and reply to comments. Thank you Ozy for the site reference :)

My replies to the comments on the Chatter Box are below:

amrit - thanks, I'm fine

Mr frame - Thank you Mr frame for keeping me in your thoughts. I can't wait to see your new pictures :)

Scruffy - What a surprise! I'm hearing from you after a long time. Thank you. How are your friends, who live near that platform. If you want, and you give me their address, I can visit them and see if they need any help.

feeling my tight skirt

2006-07-18T22:02:00.000+05:30

today I’ve worn
my favorite long tight blue jeans skirt and a white blouse.
this skirt hugs my tight round ass really tight
and tapers down so very casually

I love the way I feel
when I move,
taking tiny steps
even as my skirt holds me so close to myself

something so special about feeling sensual
about yourself
especially, when it has nothing to do with
whether or not anyone notices you ;)

reply to comments

2006-07-18T20:07:00.000+05:30

The Beast: I liked the poem very much, Beast. Thank you for sharing it with me:) Who knows what's ugly and what's beautiful, Mr Beast? It's a matter of perception. But, yes i know for sure that Beasts are passionate lovers and they're oh so romantic too!

Wdky- Aaah, how beautiful i feel, to wake up and read these precious words from you: 'I love you'. Thank you, sweetheart. Now you've me smiling throughout the day.

the poor man and his cat

2006-07-17T22:57:00.000+05:30

In one corner of the pavement,
beside the huge garbage bin,
is a small tent made of blue plastic
where the flooring is mud and tiny stones
and kerosene lantern lights up the nights
few empty utensils and a charcoal fire burning
the poor man is fast asleep on the mud floor
with no bed sheets to cover him

just outside the tent house,
on his only broken wooden chair,
a little fluffy white cat sleeps soundly
feeling warm and cozy
covered by a thick white cement sack

Reply to comments

2006-07-17T22:49:00.000+05:30

Sorry friends, i cannot for the life of mine figure out how to set this blogger problem right. But let me appreciate that at least i can post. However, what saddens me is that, everyday i rush home and switch on my computer and read the comments, reply to them and read all of your blogs and comment on it. This was a part of my life. And now i'm sitting here alone, not knowing what to do, wondering how you all must be. All i can say is i'm so angry and i wish this problem gets sorted out fast.

I wonder if others from Bombay are facing the same problem. I tried accessing blogspot from work, i got the same error. I can recieve all your comments on my email so please dont stop commenting, i'll feel so alone without anyone writing to me. Meanwhile, i'll try my best to reply to your comments through a post itself.

Mumbai guy: You are right, the date was a mistake, i was half asleep when i was publishing that post lol. Thanks :)

The Beast: I wonder who you are and how you had this sudden interest to look into all my archives and leave comments everywhere. Thanks for your opinions, especially the sarcastic ones. Oh and i loved the animated movie, "The Beauty and the Beast" and i've always been fascinated by Beasts ;)

Ozy -
Blasting of the soul: What a sweet and lovely poem you've written dear Ozy. Some day i'll collect all these tini-mini poems by you, make a book out of it, and send them to you. The title of the book, "Ozy's comments to Anu's posts". How's dat?

till we are together: Sometimes i wonder, if i can feel as much merely by imagining and fantasicing, what would happen if i were to be held or kissed in real?

unable to see..: Thanks for your warmth and concern, Ozy. I miss reading your poems.

Steve: Thank you for your comments, hope you're doing well.

Wdky: I'm also SO very angry, wdky. How i wish this problem gets sorted out real quick. I can't wait to see your blogs again! Great HNT pics btw. Delicious ;)

If i've missed replying to anyone, my apologies!

unable to see any published page

2006-07-16T12:59:00.000+05:30

Hi Friends, i can only post. I cannot see my own pages and i cannot see anyof yor pages too.
I can read your comments as they come into my email. But i cannot reply to them as i cannot access my homepage. I dont know what to do now. So please bear with me and hopefully this problem will be sorted out on its own.

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The requested URL could not be retrieved
While trying to retrieve the URL: http://anustory.blogspot.com/
The following error was encountered:
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This is the error i'm getting, on every blog which i access. I miss tasting a slice of your life from your blog.
Kisses n Hugs to you

till we are together

2006-07-16T00:24:00.000+05:30

since the day you smiled at me
my eyes are always searching for you
my heart yearns to reach out to you
and everyday I wait for something magical to happen
between you and me

I wonder what it would be like,
to talk to you, to listen to your stories
to hold your hands and look into your big beautiful eyes

I long to tell you what I feel about you
to give you the little poems I write, about us
and to feel the joy of my affections being reciprocated by you

I know, maybe, none of this may ever happen
I know, ,maybe, you aren’t even thinking about me

Yet, I am so glad you smiled at me
for I can now create these role-plays in my mind
and imagine how life would be,
if we were together!

blasting of the soul

2006-07-15T00:30:00.000+05:30

Peak evening hours
6 million people traveling home from work
Seven bombs on seven different trains
hundreds dead and thousands injured,
crippled and handicapped for life

I sit numb here, thinking about
the factory worker who has lost his arms,
the promo editor who has lost his eyes,
the cricket player who has lost his legs,
the pregnant woman who has had an abortion,
the college girl who has a disfigured face now….

I’m terrified to even imagine
myself without an eye or a limb or a disfigured face
Yet, I’m not feeling ‘Thank God, it was not ME’
Because this feeling itself is born out of
fear of a probability of loss and great pain

There is something in between here to notice
I wonder if there is a forest fire
whether the trees which do not get burnt to ashes
feel like how I do, right now.
Do they thank the heavens that they escaped?
Do they congratulate themselves that they did not create that reality?
or Do they know deep inside that, in the end, it is OK to be burnt as much as to be alive!

just for a smile

2006-07-09T21:06:00.000+05:30

what shall i do to get a smile from you?

sun (says): shall i throw golden rays at you
wave: ohhh, i can rock you like crazy, when you're in my arms
breeze: may i french kiss you, like you've never been kissed before
grass: i can dance till eternity for you
flower: look! i bloomed for you
moss: i long for your touch, for your fingers to gently carress me
mud: i have foot-festish, i love your feet on my body
sky: may i embrace you with love from all sides

all this is just for you,
for your one smile, just makes my day!

the school girl

2006-07-05T07:51:00.000+05:30

in the pouring rains,
stands a seven year old little girl
in her brown uniform
on the pavement
with an umbrella

she has a huge bag of books
on her back
and her big black eyes are
eagerly searching for the school bus

seeing the excitement in her eyes
i smile, as i see her
holding her umbrella tightly
to prevent the winds from blowing it away

my smile fades away
as my gaze reaches
the end of her arms and i see,
she has no palms
and no fingers

i look up into her eyes again,
they are not sorry!

public display

2006-07-03T00:30:00.000+05:30

once on a saturday afternoon,
a holiday at work
a day with a very low attendence

a nasty horniness was brewing in me
i wanted to do something really wild
i was wearing jeans and a cotton blouse

i went to the toilet
took off my panties
and my bra
and put them in my purse
wore my clothes back
and went back to my seat

unzipped my jeans and
stuck my pencil in my pussy
pulled it out and licked the cum nastily
and walked around the office
with my zippers open
my pussy hair wildly sticking out
and my nipples popping out of my blouse

feeling my naked leaking pussy
on my inner thighs
and pulling my nipples from over the blouse
i went back home that day
totally nude inside

some real nasty indulgences of mine..

the garbage removers

2006-07-01T15:30:00.000+05:30

it is raining so heavily here
and on my way to work,
i see garbage removers
in their bermuda shorts
and their sandals
with no masks and
no sometimes, no hand gloves too
totally drenched in the rains

collecting all the garbage
litterred in the street corner
stinking and so obnoxious
that people passing by
feel so breathless and
nauseous,
go covering their noses
with handkerchiefs
and with a frown on their faces

but the garbage removers,
some who are young teenage boys,
handsome looking with amazing bodies.
are so focussed in their work
they dont smell the stink
they dont see the garbage as 'yikes! so dirty'
and they are not trying to sneak away from it

standing there with the long strong legs in the litter
and picking them up with their hands
to load them in the dirty green garbage truck,
they are quick and focussed in their work
laughing cracking jokes amongst themselves and,
occassionally looking up at a pretty girl passing by
and smiling to themselves...

voice

2006-06-29T00:45:00.000+05:30

a little voice
has begun to speak to me
echo softly in my heart

even though
it is meak and shaky
it sounds so squeaky and shrill
it stammers and speaks in broken words
it can't even hum a single tune properly..

my little voice
has at least, finally
begun to speak to me
and echo softly in my heart

safe asleep

2006-06-28T22:42:00.000+05:30

i'm so sweet
i fell asleep in your arms
while you were flying with me

the dance

2006-06-27T02:07:00.000+05:30

let me feel my restlessness
my desperation
my aching need to feel
to experience and explore

let me relax in this feeling
let me not try to drive her away
let me not try to fix her up
let me sit beside her and listen to her story

my feelings can never harm me
no matter what,
so let me not be afraid of them

let them do their number today
and dance in estascy
for tonight,
i'll be their silent audience

what may i do

2006-06-27T01:51:00.000+05:30

what may i do
of this soul that craves to connect
of this sweet longing in my heart
of this body that longs to be touched
of these lips that are dying to kiss
of this passion in my love
of this heat in my cunt
of these flowing juices
when there is noone to taste them..

another night

2006-06-27T01:31:00.000+05:30

i'm just not able to sleep
i've been tossing and turning
in my cotton bed
for an hour and a half now
i'm feeling restless,
helpless and so desperate

i tried everything---
from fantasising (which i've become so good at now)
to dreaming
to imagining
to reliving past memories
both pleasant and painful
nothing is working

i've never had a problem to sleep before
now my mind is totally clutterred
with all kinds of thoughts
and my head has begun to ache slightly

but i know what is bothering me so much
i don't like to sleep alone

midnight story

2006-06-26T00:22:00.000+05:30

past midnight
lying on my bed
listening to love songs in fm radio
seeing the burning orange sky,
the sleeping green leaves,
the bat circling the gulmohor tree and
the plane floating like stars in the sky,

i fall asleep peacefully
like a little princess
in the strong loving arms of
my invisible prince

the forward roll, the flower & the brick

2006-06-25T19:06:00.000+05:30

at the aikido class, we do rolls, during which
we are momentarily in the air
slightly above the ground
and we land on our shoulders, softly,

now i'm just not able to do the forward rolls
i just freeze and become so nervous
that i flop on my back, clumsily,
i'm probably the only student
who is still unable to do the forward roll
the guys are giving me all types of tips & suggestions
but i am just not getting it!

today, the south african guy told me after class
'anu, you are stiff and exerting so much strength,
be relaxed and easy, you are NOT going to fall & hurt yourself'
he continued--
'think of the flower, even as it falls from such great heights
it lands so softly on the hard ground,
sometimes rocks, sometimes glass,
it is not scared as it flows with the energy of the universe
and the force of gravity, it knows it will be safe
but take a brick and drop it from two feet above the ground
the brick cracks so easily
the flower is relaxed and open and accepting (of even the fall)
while the brick resists

noone who has fallen from the great heights has ever hurt himself,
but the fear the falling and resistance to fall is what may hurt you

be the flower anu, not the brick!'

the surprise

2006-06-23T21:54:00.000+05:30

they don’t know each other,
yet she smiled and he smiled back

he asked ‘how are you’
she said, ‘fine, how are you’

pat came the reply from him, ‘bad without you’
flustered, she asked, ‘bad without..?’
he laughed, ‘just joking’
and she has not stopped smiling since.

bedazzzled

2006-06-21T21:16:00.000+05:30

I’m putting in tremendous thinking and effort in my work
but sometimes I feel, nobody really bothers about it
I want to switch jobs
but the companies want a perfectly healthy person
I feel I’m healing myself
but the physical reports state contrary

stuck in a vicious whirlpool
I wonder what is the purpose of all this?

then, I remember,
the grass joyfully dancing with the wind
the leafless tree still standing tall
the purple fossil blossoming beautifully near the drainage
the lone star shining so very brightly

are not asking - ‘
what’s the purpose of this?’
they are simply
bedazzled about their existence

all for a banana

2006-06-20T20:59:00.000+05:30

as I was travelling uphill today,
I saw two fruit vendors happily chatting.
their wooden carts filled with ripe bananas
were parked on the side of the road

suddenly one of the wooden carts
started to slide downhill slowly
everyone yelled to the banana vendor for his attention,
who was till now merrily laughing

what a funny sight it was!
to see a whole group of fruit vendors
running behind the banana cart
which kept sliding down so very swiftly

but who wouldn’t be crazy to taste a banana,
they are so delicious, aren’t they? *wink*

the smooch

2006-06-20T00:23:00.000+05:30

I kiss the sky
every evening
with my soft lips

the heavens blush
crimson red & pink
humans call this as twilight.

birth of a daffodil

2006-06-20T00:22:00.000+05:30

broken sleep
mild headache
wanted to take the day off.

a little focus in the moment
as fresh as a daffodil and
what a productive day I’ve had so far!

the doggie

2006-06-17T11:49:00.000+05:30

I stand facing my back to you
and pull my pants down
exposing my two naked half moons
to your awestruck eyes

I bend my knees a bit
and rub my tight round ass on your face,
letting you breathe into the
pungent smell of my asshole

shaking my nude assup and down wildly
so very close to your face,

my tits bouncing ahead
my arms bent and up in the air
a fucked up expression on my face

I look like your little doggie
who is waiting to be
spanked and rammed hard!

night lovers

2006-06-16T00:26:00.000+05:30

tonight,
i'm alone

my lips are smiling
my heart is overflowing with love
my hair steals a naughty kiss from me
as the soft breeze blows him on my face

I'm feeling
slight tingling sensations
running up my legs
as if the night were tickling me
to tease me

tonight,
I'm not alone any more..

the crack

2006-06-14T20:41:00.000+05:30

the whole when cracked
even a bit
releases pain & discomfort

the crack eventually
merges with the whole
to become ONE, inseparable

everytime I experience pain
physical, emotional or any other
I now remind myself that
I’m just a bit cracked

and isn’t it is in the nature
of cracks (of all sorts)
to merge with wholes?

as it is, in my nature
to merge effortlessly
with my inner being
of boundless joy and vitality

the unknown reality

2006-06-14T20:37:00.000+05:30

a one winged-crow
hops across the street
as the angry dog
rushes to catch it

the crow flaps its single wing
struggling to raise its body
above the ground
to save its life,

the dog sensing the crow’s
limitations pounces on it

my rick passed the road
and I never got to see
what happened next.

the unknown is filled with
all possibilities