little miss anu

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Location: India

There is so much to me, and yet i have such a longlong way to go. I am still discovering myself...everyday i will tell u something more about me

Thursday, November 30, 2006

a new friend

as I was leaving the hospital today,
I was laughing and joking
with the nurses and technicians
suddenly I felt something,
I turned around

curly hairs, light brown skin
eyes are dark black and lovely too
but this little girl of 7 is slightly different
she has a catheter in her neck and
her bright eyes are whispering little words to me

I saw this little girl staring at me
something about her big beautiful round eyes
and her curly locks, I was falling in love
I smiled and waved out to her
her silent big eyes suddenly brightened and
she waved back
smiling the sweetest smile I've ever seen

she is Nimisha, and on dialysis
she does not talk or smile to anyone
perhaps in my eyes she saw no sympathy
but a precious glee and delight for her
maybe she saw another 7yr old little girl in me
this is going to be the begining of
a wondrous friendship and
I'm so excited about my new friend

Saturday, November 25, 2006

the balloon

late at night
on my way back home,
speeding through the highway
I see hardly any vehicles on the road

suddenly from one of the vehicles
flew out a big red color balloon
it was snatched away swiftly by the night breeze

my eyes sparkled at the thought
of a little child around in one of the ricks
I thought of the sadness the child might feel
at the loss of his/her precious balloon
as I peeped into the vehicles on the highway
when I speeded past them

and what do I see?

in one of the ricks stands a little girl
laughing and chatterring away in utmost joy
there was no trace of sadness or loss
on her face or in her expressions
she seemed so delighted
to see the flight of the balloon in the air

perhaps, there is a greater joy in letting go
in tasting the deliciousness
of the lightness after giving something away
rather than by owning and holding on to it

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Bed no 619

Seldom is anyone allowed visit the ICU
and 25-yr old Nikhil, though conscious, was in ventilator
unable to speak, not had a drop of water for 45 days
and with 20 tubes all over his body

after my dialysis, I asked the ICU security guard
to forward my comics to Nikhil in Bed no. 619
guard directed me to the ICU counter and
the nurse directed me to Nikhil's bed
seems like I'm destined to meet Nikhil
and miraculously the universe is making it possible

I whispered as I reached his bed, `Nikhil'
two eyes opened and suddenly his face brightened
he smiled so vibrantly, and almost didn't blink
I felt like he could not take his eyes off my face
I showed him my best wishes card which said
'Get well soon and we'll have coffee together'
and he nodded furiously, still grinning ear to ear

I unwrapped the gift wrapping paper and
showed him the comics I'd purchased for him
I spoke to him for a few minutes and
told him I'll meet him again very soon
He was listening to me with rapt attention
and so were the nurses in the ICU ward

when I was just about to leave,
Nikhil tried to reach out to something over his head
it was the gift wrapping paper
he grabbed it and held it close to his heart
a tear slide from his right eye
I kissed him on his right cheek and left

Saturday, November 18, 2006

the touch of an angel

yesterday I was stuck in a traffic jam
all the vehicles were so close to each other

I was sitting in one corner of the rick
listening to the music and suddenly,
someone tried to touch me

I was so shocked, I lifted my eyes and saw
there was another rick very close to mine
and there were two legs of a man in it
I almost flew into a rage and thought,
"how dare this man grab me like this!"

and almost immediately, a tiny moon-shaped face
peeped through the other rick, with awestuck eyes
and two pigtails and a big bright radiant smile
it was a little girl sitting on that man's lap
she was trying to reach out to me
it was perhaps, the healing touch of an angel

I've still not gotton over this wonderful surprise and
throughout the journey, as long as we were together
the little girl and I, spent our time
peering from our respective ricks,
waving out, smiling and
blowing kisses to each other

Sunday, November 05, 2006

all for a hello

crowded streets
myself at the signal
in a rick and
watching the opposite street

I see someone frantically trying
to cross the opposite street
the cars and buses rushing towards him
he moves forward one step
and has to take two steps backwards

finally he does manage to cross
the street almost risking his life
and heads straight towards me
panting and excited at the same time

he stops just beside my rick
flaps his lemon yellow wings
in the most gleeful manner
greets me a loving warm 'hello'
and is off on his way now

this lemon yellow darling butterfly
almost risked his precious life
just to greet me