little miss anu

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Location: India

There is so much to me, and yet i have such a longlong way to go. I am still discovering myself...everyday i will tell u something more about me

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

the rise & the fall

thirty snow white
slim figured cranes
rise towards the sky

a few hundred yellow green leaves
some dried and some golden in color
fall from the tree towards the earth
at the same time

lavender & orange?

lavender sky
orange moon
talk about color combinations
and fashion statements

Sunday, October 29, 2006

the pedicure

when I was a little girl,
my mom told me told me
"you're legs are so short and
plump for you to wear a skirt"
this disturbs me a lot

today as the parlor lady
touched my feet to do the pedicure
I had all these ticklish feelings
running all through my veins

not only because I was embarrassed
but also as I am very touch-sensitive
the lady was grumpy and
kept staring at me
though I tried hard
to keep a straight face,
it was evident that
I could not stop smiling

she started scrubbing
on my soles, and I almost jumped up
toppling the bowl of water
on her gown, Oh boy!

I was so glad when
it was finally over
the lady said
"you meet me before you go"
and I felt she probably
wants to yell at me

yet I went to meet her
and she told me this
"you've most softest
legs I've ever massaged"

Saturday, October 28, 2006

the lousy dancer


I've been seen
images of myself
dancing so beautifully
since childhood
in my mind
I seem to be addicted
to dance and songs

but now I noticed
I cannot dance in real
I don't know why
I become so stiff in public and
I move like a little robot

yet the lousy dancer
loves to dance and
she knows not that
she glides when she walks

so the lousy dancer
dances all alone
every night for a few moments
to a song she plays for herself
in her over-sized blue night gown
with the wind playing with her long black hair

she moves back and forth
in the little space of her tiny room
sometimes held by the dark (k)night
sometimes swrilled by the soft sweet breeze
and sometimes falls into the arms of the hard bed

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Diwali

today is Diwali
a festival of lights
some light ghee lamps
some light oil lamp lamps, and
some hang big star lanterns
outside their homes all night

I've lit up my little soul
to brighten my life
Happy Diwali

Friday, October 20, 2006

the shopping

I purchased three new lovely dresses and
one pair of attractive long ear-rings today
and was returning home
seated comfortably in my rick

on one of the lonely hilly roads, I see,
a middle aged man,
exhausted from his day's work
and now, fast asleep,
lying on the pavement
under a street light

the earth is his bed
the sky is his roof and
he is probably, wearing
his only set of clothes

the garbage dealer

everyone is celebrating
Diwali, the festival of lights
the shopping malls are all lit up
colorful lanterns outside homes
expensive clothes and jewellery
delicious mouthwatering sweets
familes making extensive purchases

a lonely scrap and garbage dealer
stays in his tiny dilapilated hut
on one dark deserted road
which I pass through to reach home

on the eve of Diwali, I noticed
he had lit a little mud lamp and
placed it front of the garbage
outside his home

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

the invisible designs

I sing to myself and
make designs in the air
with my my one hand;

my other being pinned down
with needles during dialysis

Sunday, October 15, 2006

the wave

crowded streets
people rushing home
a three year old little girl
waves out to the crowd
but no time for anyone
to notice

I knew, perhaps
she may never notice me
as I was at such a distance
yet I wave out to her

to my surprise and utter delight
she turns around suddenly
and waves back to me
her bright eyes
joyfully looking into mine
and a big smile
on her sweet round face.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

this saturday morning

golden sunrays
scatterred on my floors

a speck of diamond dust
gayfully dances in it mid-air

Thursday, October 12, 2006

steal a kiss

as I was sitting in my rick
I felt someone rush towards me
in full speed

I could feel his warm breath
on my soft cheeks
so very close to me
that I was shocked
I turned my face around
and stared at him

he suddenly stopped in mid-air
and turned his proud head
pretending like he never meant any mischief
and sneaked away in the opposite direction

I swear, I have this surest
feeling in me
that this naughty orange butterfly
with bright polka dots on his wings
almost stole a kiss from me!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

and time froze for us

riding by the wind
in my rickshaw
looking around
with my big beautiful eyes

I see a little yellow leaf
falling from a tree
and suddenlyin one moment
it felt like time had frozen and
the leaf looked like
it was performing
an exquisite dance for me

the traffic around me was so still
my rickshaw was revolving around the leaf
and everything else was a blurr
as if they never existed
in time and space

time had stopped and there was silence
while we looked into each other eyes
the little yellow leaf and myself!

Monday, October 09, 2006

the duet

if there is something
which makes me jump up in joy
it is to listen to
my favorite song in the radio

it is magic to me
when what I hum
is sung back to me
in the most melodious voice
by the universe itself

one such duet song
we're humming together right now
the universe and myself

Saturday, October 07, 2006

who is the loudest of them all?

sitting on my window cill
with my legs hanging outside
I watch the beautiful green garden

all I can hear is sounds
the slight roaring of the winds
the swishing of the leaves
the sound of a million crows in the sky
as if they are discussing something of great significiance
the laughing and chuckling sounds of little children
the gossipping of the house-wives
the greetings of the elderly gentlemen to each other
the mild barking of the street dog under a car in my building
as if he is grumbling to himself, "can I have some peace please?"

Mirror, Mirror invisible mirror hanging in the air
"Who's the loudest of them all?" asked me

and suddenly, oh all of a sudden,
down came a very heavy downpour
a curtain of millions of drops dropped
without a warning from the sky
and in a moment, all the voices subsided
the people, birds and animals ran for shelter
there was still silence
only one sound
the pitter patter sound of the rain and
its transparent blue glitterring diamond rain-drops
waiting to trip and fall from the tips of the leaves

my invisible magical mirror had just answered me

Friday, October 06, 2006

the fullness

a certain strength I feel in weakness
a certain wellbeing I feel in sickness
for what do I care to lose,
when there is nothing left to be lost

a certain daring I sense in myself
as I let go and give in
get up and walk away
all alone

my hands in my empty pockets
the sun still shining in my heart
the moon smiling through my lips
perhaps, it is the fullness of my emptiness

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

new blog title

When I started this blog, I used the title 'Stripped nude' to undress my pretensions, fears, insecurities, frustrations, dissapointments and pains. I wanted to strip nude for all these and be real and authentic even at the cost of seeming stupid and silly.

But for the past few days, I'm feeling unable to relate much to this blog title and it seems to me like I've overgrown it.

So without much thinking, I've changed the title to 'Anu Story'. Right now, I can't think of any interesting names to name this blog. So I'll call it this.

I'm sorry to inconvenience.

Edit:
My dear friend emerald eyes of the blog http://thisisthecatsmeow.blogspot.com/ has called me with this name 'little miss anu'. I loved it so much and I feel I'd like to name this blog as 'little miss anu'. Thank you my sweet lovely e.e..

three's a company

reading a book, falling asleep
with one tiny green insect
and one fat little black ant
lying comfortably beside me

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

non-judgement

dirty stinking gutter on the pavement
people frowning and cursing the stench
yellow butterfly happily dancing around it