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There is so much to me, and yet i have such a longlong way to go. I am still discovering myself...everyday i will tell u something more about me

Monday, August 14, 2006

the look!

today, early morning, as I was
wearing a scarf around my neck in the rick
to prevent my hair from flying
I felt I was being watched intently

I saw a small little girl
on her way to school
staring at me so purposefully

I smiled at her and waved out to her
but she did not react
and yet did not take her eyes off me
still staring at me so very intensely
so deep in thought as if
she was solving an algebra problem

I’ll never know what she was thinking about me
but I’ll never forget the expression on her
lovely apple face and brilliant awestruck eyes


Blogger The Beast said...

She must be reasoning, solving a math problem is way too easier than understanding Anu.

10:50 PM, August 14, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

Does anyone need to understand me at all, Mr Beast. All we need is to understand one's own self ;)

11:30 PM, August 14, 2006  
Blogger The Beast said...

Does anyone need to understand me at all: yes.

All we need is to understand one's own self: no.

11:43 PM, August 14, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

Thank you for your opinion. I respect it and I agree to disagree with it.

11:44 PM, August 14, 2006  
Blogger The Beast said...

I believe understanding someone (in this case you), allows the other (that girl, myself or anyone else) to love you.

I absolutely love the idea, the feel of loving someone more than loving myself. But to allow myself do that, I need to understand that someone first.

It may not make sense to you, and still you would disagree but that’s all right :-)

12:06 AM, August 15, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

I understand what you're trying to convey, Beast. I've been there and done that @ loving someone more than oneself.

To me such a love may have expectations attached to it to be reciprocated in a similar fashion. And all expectations have a probability for dissapointment.

Secondly, If I'm loving myself totally unconditioally (or at least working in that direction), I'll make conscious choices in respect to any relationship. I'll give more space and sky to another and be willing to understand him/her better. To me that is love. To give and recieve unconditionally.

I'm working on this and it has brought me tremendous peace and ease, love and life, joy and bliss, health and even wealth..into my life. But I'm not sure I've been able to express my feelings about love clearly. But still...stammerring and faltering..this is the love I'll love...the love for myself and the rest will follow for sure.

12:30 AM, August 15, 2006  
Blogger The Beast said...

Of course expectations are integral part of love and any kind of relationship based on love. Without it, love doesn’t look or feel real.

Understanding someone (or many) is a lifelong journey. I won’t let you get away just by saying, been there and done that ;-)

12:57 AM, August 15, 2006  
Blogger ozymandiaz said...

Or perhaps you are an algebra problem. I hate that word "problem". I much prefer mystery, conundrum, enigma, ado, riddle...
I guess I just couldn't see you as a problem

3:39 AM, August 15, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

:) Ozy

4:58 PM, August 15, 2006  

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