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Thursday, April 13, 2006

aikido of life

in my last three aikido class
sensei said,

"do not push against the opponent
you are bound to fall on your back
stop resisting, stop obstructing
go with the flow and use his energy
against himself."

i have been wallowing in self-pity
becoz i may not be able to learn aikido in the dojo

maybe it is time to learn aikido in life
it is time to not push against forces
but go with the flow and accept it

there is great power in acceptance
as i am not offerring any resistance then,

i will accept and acknowlege all my creations
even the ones i never wanted..
in doing so, i am not discounting myself
i am allowing myself to continue receiving the gifts of the universe..

afterall !!!
the buddha never went to a dojo to learn
and never had a teacher...

13 Comments:

Blogger Pierre Turlur said...

Dear Anu,

How beautiful to hear this!

Acceptance and surrender are one.

Once you allow the huge Aikido with forms and light to take place,
you might find yourself back in the dojo too.

Fighting or self-pity will take you away (if it is what you want, that's okay).

If I may say, you are starting to make Aikido your life,

If I may say, having explored striving and pushing and trying, something speaks in you saying: "That's fine as it is".

True love does not mind, people like you and me sometimes do.

Thank you for being you and thank you for your appreciation.

tetsuten

9:38 AM, April 13, 2006  
Blogger Matt Kohai said...

Aikido is a good way to look at life - going with the flow and steering it to your benefit when the moment is right.

Good luck, Anu. I'm hoping it all works out in the end for you.

3:52 PM, April 13, 2006  
Blogger ozymandiaz said...

Essentially, all martial arts are derived from philosophy. Judgment is impedance, a force against force, as judgment requires separation. To observe and recognize without judgment creates a oneness with the environment.
Buddha had many a teacher. Every sky, every morsel of earth, every word uttered by fool or scholar (not saying those two are exclusive of each other), were his teachers. And then the greatest of all possible teachers, the self.

6:45 PM, April 13, 2006  
Blogger Beth said...

anu,
i admire your attitude about this. maybe the thing to do is to explore the spiritual aspects of aikido, until the time comes that you can practice it physically. i still have hope about this. send me an email and let me know how it is going.
this may seem like a silly idea, but have you considered going to the classes and watching, and doing the techniques and movements by yourself? also...what about weapons practice? i know when people who are more advanced practice with weapons it can get dangerous. but the way we beginners practice we are doing different sword techniques reallllly slowly with a partner. i can't see how this could cause any injury, even in your dojo-manager's paranoid imagination.
these are just some ideas because my heart is breaking for you, and i still believe that there should be a way you can do this.
sending love and hugs,

4:43 PM, April 14, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

Pierre -Thank you for your amazing comment. It is a lovely post in its own way. I enjoyed reading it.

Kohai - I want it to work too Kohai. There is nothing i want more than that. And having said that, if it does not work, i will accept that trusting myself that i am upto something, and i will uncover that soon.

Ozy - I have read your words a number of times by now. It has such a healing impact on me. Thank you so much. Yes, many a teacher the Buddha had..and there are no conditions to join their class.

Dearest Kim -Those are some lovely ideas. Maybe i could go to class just to watch. I can request the sensei. And the weapon's practise is yet to begin in the dojo and when it does i can be a part of it. My heart melts too when i read your love-filled words Kim. I know you want so much more for me..as i want for you. All my love.

7:05 PM, April 14, 2006  
Blogger WDKY said...

What a marvellous post, and want REAL intelligence you have, Anu! And I loved the last one, about the string, to.

I think I can probably sleep if I go to bed now... night night x

6:16 AM, April 15, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

Thank you wdky. I too slept well after i wrote it :-)

Goodnight wdky and sweet dreams :-)

9:26 AM, April 16, 2006  
Blogger Nina said...

Anu, don't give up! I know you won't.
You have much more inner stregnth than you realize and I know you will succeed in anything you put your mind and heart to...

take care sweetie, I know you will someday realize you are the teacher and we have all been blessed to know you.

xoxo,
nina

12:14 AM, April 17, 2006  
Blogger Sharri said...

impermanent are all created things
strive on with awareness

sharri

7:29 AM, April 17, 2006  
Blogger Rex Venom said...

Too True!
Rock on!

10:10 PM, April 17, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

Nina - you are too sweet :-) Thank you for your encouraging words.

Sharri - Thanks :-) i shall remember this.

Rex - how's you buddy?

8:00 AM, April 19, 2006  
Blogger michelle bloom said...

it seems the only way we humans learn is by having something dear removed from us, in a state of lack we learn there is no lack....with acceptance we learn tolerance...

11:40 AM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger anu said...

True blue, when we accept, we do not discount ourselves and we allow the energy of the universe to flow in to our world :-)

8:45 PM, April 28, 2006  

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